In a FUNK-Some Random Ramblings . . .5:25:00 PM
As a stay at home mom of 3 kiddos, my “me time” is extremely limited. Things that I enjoyed doing in my “me time” before we moved were going to get my eyebrows threaded, mani-pedis and dinner and drinks with my friends, but now that I’ve moved, I haven’t made many new friends yet.
So now that I’ve moved and have no friends, my “me time” consists of either going to the grocery store with my sister (thank GOD she moved here) or watching late night movies while the rest of the family is fast asleep. It’s the only time my home is quiet and peaceful, the only time I am able to get some peace of mind. Last night my movie of choice was Sex in the City. I wasn’t a huge follower of the show, because I’m not normally much of a TV person, but it made for good “me time” last night.
While watching the movie it made me realize quite a few things about myself. It made me realize how much I miss my friends; having their support on good days and bad. I also realized that being a stay at home mom has been enabling me to kind of- let myself go. Before becoming a stay at home mom, I enjoyed getting up for work and doing myself up-wearing heels, makeup and nice clothing, now I get up, get the kids ready for school, throw on some sweats and sit on the computer in bed nursing “little guy” most of day. I miss taking the commuter rail to downtown Boston and walking 1.5 miles through the Boston Common, taking the green line to Fenway and walking past Fenway Park to get to the office. I miss the sights, the smells and the energy of the city. Now, I never walk, although it’s the winter, it’s not that cold, I should get up and get active again. At the same time, I know that I am extremely blessed to have the opportunity to be home with my children, to get up with them in the morning and be home for them when they get home. To be able to take the time and spend the day planning out meal plans and sprucing up my home however I please. It’s just that lately, I feel like I’m missing a part of “me”.
This movie has made me realize that I’ve been in a funk, a serious, serious F.U.N.K! So I’ve decided to make a change today. Rather than snacking myself into oblivion and sitting around being lazy in bed on the computer, I woke up and got dressed, did my hair and even put on makeup!
I made myself a delish and healthy brunch! An egg beater-feta omelet, with a fresh spinach and tomato salad and a sausage patty. I also plan to dust off the baby’s stroller and take advantage of this sunny but cool day-well, maybe ;) baby steps, baby steps . . .
I also decided to re-examine my home decor. When you decorate, besides being conscious of trends, do you think of how the decor makes you feel? I took down some framed art work that I’ve had hanging in various places in my home(s) for the past 5+ years. The artwork used to make me feel good, warm and cozy, now it’s almost become a downer for me and for my hubby as well. I also decided to get rid of all of my dark winter decor, although spring is still months away. I took down my dark drapery panels and just let the sun beam in. I cleared out
the little bit of all of the furniture and plan to start from scratch for the spring.
(Told ya we had no furniture, that ikea couch thingy is temporary until I find a couch set that I LOVE and don’t ask what’s hanging from that window, but that blue thing on the floor will be replacing it-HELLO-Spring!)
As mothers/wives/girlfriends, we tend to put other people’s needs first and our needs last, and in time we end up losing ourselves (as Samantha felt in the movie). And often times while doing so, we become depressed or get ourselves in a rut as I have.
If you feel this way, I challenge you to do something for yourself today, whether it’s painting your toe nails, or just changing your hair style, just do something that you want to do! Even the tiniest of changes can make a humongous difference in the way that you feel.
Have a blessed day!